I know I've been horrendously inactive as of late
But I actually have an excuse this time
There's been a lot going on for me offline
To the point where I've lost almost all motivation to do much of anything but waste time on video games and such.
As some of you may know, a year or two ago I was diagnosed with A.D.D. and Depression. (Because it's a huge peeve of mine- I went to a specialist. I was diagnosed by a professional, not some self-examined 13 year old who wants attention)
Anyway, I have to take meds every morning for both things.
For a while, I was taking my meds and they were working and everything was fine.
However, the pharmacy that we were getting them from decided to stop ordering/carrying/providing the specific kind that I had to get. They switched them up, and told us they were the same. What they didn't mention was that they worked differently, and many, many
people had complained about this specific kind not working nearly as well.
For about 4-5 months, I was taking these pills and everything was slowly declining. I started having the thoughts I had before. Thoughts of, well, let's go with general self-hatred and just hatred in general.
The only reason I didn't fall as low as I did before, honestly, was thanks to my boyfriend who was like an extra dose of happy pills.
Anyway, I was taking these and everything got worse. I went back to my doctor on Thursday. Only then did we find out that the pills they had given us were completely wrong- while they were the same basic medication, they weren't even remotely close to the correct dosage or delivery. Long story short, they were quick-release pills that provided a smaller amount of the medicine right away and that was it- nothing else. I was taking slow-release burst capsules that provided a higher dose with, well, regular bursts throughout the day</i>
I started taking the correct pills again yesterday, and I'm just starting to feel better and work back into normal daily life.
TL;DR I was given the wrong meds from the pharmacy and I felt horribly depressed for 4-5 months.
With that story aside, next weekend, I won't be online much- if at all. I'll be spending a lot more time with my boyfriend than usual next weekend. It's our anniversary on the 17th u//w//u <3
If everything really gets back into the swing of things, I may open commissions back up for a while. I'm broke and need some money
I really need some money to get my boyfriend something on our anniversary, so I am actually taking a handful of commissions right now. (Info is here; www.furaffinity.net/journal/57… )
okay have a good day everyone i love you all for not completely ditching me ; u ; <3
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